I love the words from that Natasha Bedingfield song, Unwritten, release your inhibitions, feel the rain on your skin.I think we all, at some point in our life, have had inhibitions, things that held us back, kept us from really going after something, someone, things that hindered us from being who we wanted to be, or things that held us back from being free to be ourselves completely. Then, regret sinks in. We begin to think, why didn’t I show and tell that person how much I loved them, how beautiful they were to me? Why did I wait until their funeral to see them, when so many years had gone by? Why didn’t I ever call that person back? Why did I have a grudge for so many years towards that person?
We wonder why we never took the chances we wanted to, or the opportunities while we had them? I remember when I was in high school, I wanted to be a cheerleader, and some girls even said I could do it, but a part of me was afraid to try, so I never did. Then, there were times I was afraid to date a nice guy, because of what some people might think of us going out. There have been times in my life, I said things I wish I hadn’t, and left things unsaid, that I wished I had said. Another thing I have spent so much of my life doing, is over analyzing the negative words of people, or the ones I thought were negative because I didn’t really get what they meant at the time. All that energy could have been spent remembering the good.
Then, there were times, I wished I had treated some people better, and let go of the people that were making no effort to show me love, while I was putting so much effort into them. But here is what I have learned, you can’t live in the past, the regrets of yesterday. Today is a new day, and I am a new person through Jesus, and I no longer have to live with regrets.
Who I was does not matter anymore. My sin and shame, does not count anymore. Someone paid the price , to make me free, and to show me the love, that led me to become the person I was meant to be all along. Because of what Jesus did, I can be the person I was created to be, so I don’t have to live with regrets. I am learning now, how to be free from the inhibitions, that there is a freedom, that God wants me to walk in, so I can be, completely me 🙂
The chances you never took, the people you never pursued but wanted to, the mistakes you made, learn from them, and move on. And now, allow yourself to pursue the ones you love, take those chances, go after those dreams, say those words you want to say. No more regrets. If it does not work out, it’s ok, it wasn’t meant for you, but if it does, that is ok. After all, if you are trusting God, his purpose and will is going to come forth in your life.
with love, April